I set here crying over things I can not control...call me a cry baby....But I'll have you know that yes even prideful adults cry too...just some dont admit to it..lol. You will prpobably get tired of hearing me ramble on about how I miss my girls, but if that is the case, well then I suggest you go to someone elses blog...you may do so now if you wish..........ok then, your still here so let talk...i have 4 of the most beautiful girls in the world, I lost them because I was on drugs and was unable to provide the love and care they needed...you would expect more from a mother...I expected more from myself. It just didn't work out that way...I moved to Alabama from Louisville ky. on april 15, 2005...and the last time I used drugs was April 14, 2005.....I have made a complete change...I am a different person now...but still am not allowed a simple phone call from or to my children...am I the only mother in the world that has made mistakes?? Please somebody let me know...I'm at my witts end, and I seriously dont know what to do...I have Lupus, and ptsd...I am permanitly disabled...and have nothing but time to set and ponder on all this...would love to get some responces...