christmas doesn't feel like christmas anymore

Christmas used to be the most important Holiday for me...all the lights, people running around, trying to find the best gift at the best price, putting up the tree, wrapping the gifts, and watching my girls faces as they opened their presents...that was the most wonderous time of my life....NOT ANY MORE!!! I just dont seem to care about any of it....didn't put up my tree, didnt get up at 3 am to go shopping the day after Thanksgiving, no lights this year...just dont feel like Christmas....I dont have my girls here in Alabama with me, and I think I may be going through some kind of depression....hell I dont even want to get out of bed, let alone get out and do anything...Im moving into my new house on the first of January, so that may have alot to do with me just not wanting to get involved in any kind od decorating...I dont know....I just dont know.....All I know is that I wish so much That i could be with my girls....that would be the best Christmas that I could ask for....I could never ask for nothing more...I love you, ALLEXXIS....BRETTA...RAYNA...MIKAYLA...I wish all 4 of you the best christmas ever...know that you will always be in my thoughts and prayers...